I’m curious to see what you think, so honest feedback please. My struggle in moving forward has been in his inability to own what he did. For example, he referrs to the bruises on my neck as being on my shoulder and not clavicle and neck. He has turned mutual business contacts who were supportive and kind against me because he lied about what happened that night. So now a possible job offer and classes which were offered is no longer available. Instead of working on his anger in therapy his focus has been on “what I did to provoke him.” That’s what’s at the root of all this, that even after the damage he has caused to my brain he continues to blame me. So, last night I decided to hire forensic specialists to examine the photos and my medical notes so there’s one document that will withstand his lies, but then why do I care. I care because I can’t forgive myself for staying with him despite knowing better and because I allowed him to take everything from me including my dignity. My difficulty in letting go comes from not forgiving myself for falling for the lies and allowing him to get to me so much that I wanted to die. I know I should go because over and over he has proven to be a dangerous and violent criminal who is void and is unable to be empathetic and take responsibility for his actions. I know I need to let it go, but on the other hand I see that as yet another time I allowed him to shit all over me.